Chapter 2. . .it's the cunning twisting of reality that hurts most.

So, I re-read my post of 11/08/09 and thought a word or two in follow-up might be needed. . .?

Domestic violence and child abuse.

Without a doubt, the physical pain was unbearable at times.  But what it did to my mind was most devastating. 

The revision of events by the abuser in aid of justification:

It was all my fault.

It took me years to even touch that pain.

. . .it's the cunning twisting of reality that hurts most.

When I broke the silence, I broke the rules. 

I was shamed for sharing what was real.  For being a "victim." 

That hurts more than the physical pain from being hit.

It is truly the ultimate mindfuck.